Had twice experiences of miscarriages is not easy to forget. Especially for couple that expecting their first baby such Sam Cooper and Lily Allen.
That was an unnerving time for 26 years old Lily when she was dating Chemical Brothers musician, Ed Simons, She suffered her first miscarriage, then she separated from Simon, fell in love with Sam Cooper, the owner of building company and became pregnant again in spring 2010. They was ecstatic.
But then she was suffered a miscarriage six months in her pregnancy, November last year. That was a devastated as ‘private hell’ for Lily and Cooper.
Now she married with Cooper, he proposed Lily on Christmas Day, while they were on holiday in Bali, and get married in June.
This third pregnancy really well looked after, with a loving and caring husband who’s not let her to work, she protectively strokes her bump and she’s six months pregnant.
“I’m not supposed to be working,” she continues in laugh, “I haven’t told Sam, my husband, that I’m doing this interview. And his office is right over there. In fact, I can see him at his computer. Hopefully he won’t be able to see you and he’ll think I’m sitting here talking to myself. He could definitely believe it at this point!.”
“Taking it easy”Lily had been told by everyone around her.
“After my …” she looks down at the table before composing herself “… last baby, I’m being really closely monitored so I come to London every Thursday for a scan. The doctor keeps telling me to take it easy.”
Well taking it easy for Lily means, guest-editing ES Magazine, running her record label, In the Name Of, and writing the lyrics for the Bridget Jones musical that is set to open in the West End next year. It means overseeing Lucy in Disguise, the vintage clothes shop she runs with her older half-sister Sarah Owen in Soho’s Lexington Street. It also means working out how to bring up her child.
Clutching a copy of Gina Ford’s Contented Little Baby book, she prepares to welcome the baby in all way
“She’s all about tough love, right? Leaving babies to cry rather than baby-led parenting. Who knows what I’m going to be like as a mum? No idea. Big change.”
Allen is a daughter of actor Keith Allen and film producer Alison Owen and Joe Strummer of The Clash as her godfather, she is as you might expect as vocal on twitter, she says, ” I think it’s important to say what you think. I’m very reactive person.”
She rubs her bump again and feel guilty, “These times feel strangely apocalyptic. I feel a little guilty about bringing this little one into the world, actually. It definitely feels weird.”
For the death of Amy Winehouse at young age, 27 years old, she says, “Really sad. But I also felt that she’d become such a cartoon character of herself. Her death almost didn’t feel real because her life had virtually been lived in the newspapers near the end.”
Lily saw Winehouse at V Festival two years ago.
“I don’t think she was performing. I’ve had nights out with Amy and I know exactly what used to go on. I also spent time with her at her house in Camden. Not the one she died in, the one before. I felt very trapped by the presence of 40 paparazzi guys hysterical outside her front door. I could totally see why she didn’t want to leave her house. It seemed more appealing to stay in and take heroin. Why would anyone want that chaos in their life? It’s not something anyone chooses.”
“Amy struggled … she wanted a real life. She wanted to go down to the pub and she couldn’t.” Did Lily partly leave London to escape the attention, the drugs, the madness of celebrity? “Yes. Totally. Actually, when Amy died, I got several texts from friends saying they were really glad I was still here. That I hadn’t died too. It’s so easy to get caught up in that madness and I count my lucky stars I’ve been strong enough to walk away.”
She is feel lucky to find Sam Cooper, “I am now Mrs Cooper on all my credit cards and personalised stationery too. I love it! Being married feels so good though it’s hard to articulate why. It just does. It feels more secure.”
She is also jumpy, as though the miscarriages have haunted her. “I was terrified the other night in bed. I wake up a lot at the moment and at one point I touched Sam’s face and it was freezing cold. I was screaming. ‘Sam! Sam! Omigod, my husband’s dead! I’ve sorted everything out and now it’s all over!’ He woke up and said, ‘All the windows are open’.”
Her half sister, Sarah turns up, they actually can get along well now. Last autumn the sisters launch Lucy in Disguise, when asked if she’s good at saying sorry if they fall out over something to do with Lucy in Disguise, Lily answers quick, “I never need to say sorry! She does!”
Lily has struggling a little balance about her pregnancy and work life, she grabs the Gina Ford book then says she really will soon slow down.
“Instinctively I always want to be involved in everything. But with this pregnancy, especially with what happened last time, I’m getting to the point where I think, f**k everything.” She smiles. “It’s the one time in my life I’m allowed to do nothing.”
The happy and loving parents to be is keeping the baby gender for them only.
“I do. It’s between me and the husband. I haven’t even told my mum. She thinks she knows what it is and whenever she calls me she refers to the baby as Betty.”
